“You can get help from teachers, but you are going to have to learn a lot by yourself sitting alone in a room.” -Dr. Seuss
That describes pretty much perfectly my approach to any passion I have now. My linguistic cum literary pursuit and then yoga have always been approached like this.
That said, one needs to apply strict discipline while adopting this method because based on my experience, it is harder to guide yourself than others while learning. There are always excuses and justifications to make, that tells you,”It’s ok not to practice now. It’s ok not to be the best. It’s fine not to ….” And suddenly you find yourself a total failure. Stuck and sucked by your own feeble mind.
Doing what we want makes us free. Doing what we must do makes us successful.
A friend asked if she wanted to be free and successful. Well, of course she can! If she owns her life, she can do whatever she desires. Just like you and I.
“We are as fucked up as you are.”- Sex in the City
That sounds like what a yoga guru should say to his or her students, too.
Nobody is fully immune to this. All of us are fucked up in some way. Some are terribly, some are slightly. The degrees are many.
So the next time you assume your yoga guru is a saint or a sage or a demi god, remember the quote.
Berjalan pagi tadi menyusuri sebuah jalan kecil. Bangkai tikus yang sudah tipis, garing bagaikan dendeng atau yang masih mengeluarkan darah segar bukan pemandangan luar biasa di sini. Namun kali ini bangkai itu lain. Warna bulunya putih bersih. Mungkin tikus albino, pikirku. Tetapi kakinya empat dan terlalu besar untuk ukuran tikus got. Anak kucing rupanya. Apakah itu anak kucing yang sama yang tempo hari kulihat di sini juga? Saat itu ia tampak kurus kering, jalannya gemetar, mencari induknya yang entah ada di mana. Kecil kemungkinan sang induk mengabaikannya. Bisa jadi pemiliknya yang menelantarkannya begitu saja. Sebentar lagi tubuh mungilnya akan dikerumuni ribuan semut dan belatung. Hingga dagingnya tandas. Bulu-bulu putihnya akan kering tertimpa sinar matahari selama berhari-hari lalu terbang tersapu angin. Tulang belulangnya menyatu dengan tanah. Dan aku pun berlalu, seperti jutaan yang lain yang berlomba dengan waktu.
“Don’t overstretch. Just feel your body.”- Bryan Jones
I am called a bendy boy by most of my friends because bending my body is so easy, much easier than packing some extra pounds. Sadly enough, I am not so proud of it.
Because my bendiness is also my weakness. I cannot feel my body properly. That way, my skills of being a teacher are questioned. By whom? Myself! How can I teach when I cannot explain and tell them what I feel? What sensation do I feel when I for instance do a forward bend? This is all because I manage to do that quite effortlessly. I didn’t know how I possibly came into it. It just happened. Poof! Abrakadabra! I experimented aimlessly, having no clear expectation from my yoga practice and all is coming without me asking.
Thus my homework is now to figure out how to control my bendiness so as to make me feel better. I am welcome to any sensations, even that means pain.
Pada suatu ujian.
“Ini kelas ribut sekali! Mana dosen pengawasnya? Hei kamu, malah jalan-jalan di belakang!”
“Dikerjakan tesnya, malah berdiri di situ!! Mana ini pengawasnya?”
“Sa sa saya pakkk…”
“Oh maaf pak.. Saya tidak tahu. Saya kira…”
“Too much of something is bad enough […]
Too much of nothing is just as tough …”
Like overweight people, underweight people are also unhappy because people think they are having problems. And somebody needs to rescue them from the disaster of being overly skinny. Like me, and Frances Chan.
According to some reports, Chan – who is a Yale junior – has to defend her rights to have a genetically skinny body. Isn’t that as bad as skin color discrimination? Even not all these skinny people really want to be that skinny you know! Because of the silly pressure like one given by the Harvard officials, hard gainers are likely to fall prey of the unhealthy diets. As Upi.com put it, Frances Chan will “no longer have to cram her body full of ice cream and Cheetos in order to put on weight.” Ridiculous! No one should eat that much only to please other people or only to look fuller but not necessarily healthier.
Yale officials argued that Chan stands 5’2” but merely weighs 92 lbs.. They stated that her body mass index was too low. That said, they began requiring her weekly weigh-ins and urine tests to prove she didn’t have an eating disorder.
“It felt really bad to be this powerless,” Chan told the New Haven Register. “I ate ice cream twice a day. I ate cookies. I used elevators instead of walking up stairs. But I don’t really gain any weight.”
She preserves calories taken and tries to be as sedentary as she could and eats junk foods like that. What is the point of it all? She is healthy and functioning. That I cannot understand.
Again it is said in spite of her efforts, the 20-year-old was only able to gain two pounds. Chan says her whole family is slight of frame, and naturally thin. That explains!!!
Frustrated with the situation (well, who isn’t??), the history major penned a piece for the Huffington Post detailing her struggles with Yale.
“No more weigh-ins, no more blood draws. I don’t have an eating disorder, and I will not let Yale Health cause me to develop one,” Chan wrote. Well put, dear!
“If Yale wants to kick me out, let them try — in the meantime, I’ll be studying for midterms, doing my best to make up for lost time.”
Harvard, our weight is absolutely none of your business!
Chan also wrote a letter to Yale President Peter Salovey. “At Yale, you’re taught to be the change that you want to see in the world,” Chan said. “Well, this seems like an easy thing to change.”
On Friday, Chan was allowed to see a new physician. “So she trusts that I do not have an eating disorder and admitted that ‘we made a mistake,’” Chan said.
She agreed to continue being monitored by Yale Health, but only has to check in once per semester.
[New Haven Register]
Read more: http://www.upi.com/Odd_News/2014/04/08/Yale-student-deemed-too-thin-tried-to-bulk-up-by-stuffing-her-face-to-avoid-expulsion/3611396960573/#ixzz2yOnmJlIr